Made me smile

Found this on the web...

Scrapbook Circus, Life on the darkside
DescriptionIs there life after carpools and PTA? An old mommy trying to find my way.

new definition of mommy
"Mommy", ok, that's when you're everything to your little people. As they entered the tween/teen years and needed me in a different way, I became Mom. Now what am I? My firstborn is a 1000 miles away, successful in her career, successful in love, sniff sniff and doesn't "need" me anymore. I am thankful beyond belief, she is my pride and joy, the one child that I have put the finishing touches on, she has spread her wings and flown, built a nest of her own. Child #2 is getting there, mostly self supporting but uses the house as a pitstop and expects "his" room to stay frozen in time for his personal convinence. Child #3, my "smart" one, the college student who is personally responsible for my inability to attend a CKU (horrible for me to admit just how shallow a mother I've become but if this sucker doesn't get a job soon, I'm going to strangle him). He graces us with his presence every other weekend during school and for the 3 long summer months. Our only absolute proof that he is currently in residence is the shortage of cokes in the house and the lag time on my computer due to his monster 'puter sharing cables with mine. And the baby, 18, knows it all so of course he sees no reason for college, recently joined the workforce and now has virtually unlimited funds for the enlargement of his movie collection. In and out they come, no more hugs and warm fuzzies, no more daily parenting lessons, no more family dinners around the table, no more involvement with schools and teams, no more monitoring of their friends and lives. So where does this leave me? I sit and wait for somebody to need me and that happens less and less. DH doesn't get it, doesn't realize that my life's work has petered out and I'm struggling for a clue on what to do with myself now, he's convinced that the world is now my oyster and I can do all the things for myself that I didn't do while raising this tribe.
Posted: 9:38 AM, May. 16, 2005

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Wow, can't believe I stumbled across a blog I had started in May 2005. Only one entry but I love it. Brief glimmer of how some of your little struggles (mom identity crisis) hang in there but
also how quickly things can change. Baby has slowed his movie acquisitions but now collects tools and electronics like they were pokemon cards, only way bigger and costing way more.
Darling smart child #3 has graduated, is gainfully employed, enjoys watching his bank account grow by leaps and bounds and has switched from cokes to barq's. My happy one, #2 is further along the path to adulthood, living with his fiance and baby, saving for a house and most importantly, he's turned out to be a great daddy...his crap is still in his room even though he doesn't live here. Precious firstborn, what can I say, she decided that she wanted more out of life. Threw all her balls into the air, said a prayer and is following her dreams, still a 1000 miles away but now in the same time zone, beaucoup new adventures, new friends, new accomplishments, she awes me with her faith and determination, humbles me with her strength.
And me, after 11 yrs of paying LSU, wrote my last check to them in April, did get to my first CKU (loved it), added CE and already have 2 more trips planned and paid for, lost a friend, pulled the friends I kept closer, lost a job but learned a huge lesson in taking care of and respecting myself (need to learn to practice that on a daily basis!) and funny enough, still trying to figure out "what's next". Humpth, no clue if it's the empty nest thing looming or the mid 40's thing or the "K" thing or all of it together.... best solution for the moment.... a cup of tea and read "Eat, Pray, Love" again.